Anthony Bourdain's long-burning suicidal wick -- in his own words

As Bourdain continued to struggle publicly with his demons over the years, he also became increasingly comfortable with the idea of suicide as potential exit strategy. He became particularly comfortable with the idea of hanging himself as an option, and was especially drawn to the idea of hanging himself in the shower. Sufficiently comfortable that he referred casually and explicitly to killing himself in this way throughout his professional career. Not occasionally, but frequently. A cursory review of his public statements over the years reveals 19 separate occasions— in writing, during interviews, and on camera— on which he refers to suicide by hanging. On the vast majority of these occasions he refers explicitly to hanging himself in the shower, on 1 occasion more specifically to hanging himself in the shower of his hotel room, and on 1 occasion even more specifically to hanging himself in the shower stall of his lonely hotel room: